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I'm Lonely (And I Love It)
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been thinking a lot abt fwb!gojo today.... this is his first time ever doing this kind of a thing btw. i do not think he sleeps around AT ALL. but with you, he just... you start off as very good friends but then it keeps escalating – you start sitting closer and closer, your thighs always touching as you lounge on the couch. his hands seem to always find your waist in public, your seem to be in his hair more and more. and the thing is... satoru isn't all that good at deciphering his own feelings. he isn't entirely sure what this is; the butterflies in his stomach whenever you laugh at his jokes, the warmth that spreads under his skin whenever he sees you bend over. it's weird. he doesn't know what to do.
so, when one night you inch closer with your hand on his thigh, he lets you. he welcomes you with open arms. you ask whether it's okay or not and he lets out a shaky yes, his cheeks burning with something new, his eyes low and heavy as he stares at your lips. you feel so good on top of him, your body flushes to his and he thinks about how perfect this is. how much he likes it. the night is like a wet dream for him, something he's always dreamed off but when you leave the bed and hop into the shower without giving him a kiss, he doesn't even know what the weight on his heart means. where it comes from. he doesn't ponder over it for too long though as you step outside the bathroom in a shirt way too big, his shirt. he watches you get dressed and hums when you joke about his bed hair. he thinks you look gorgeous. he doesn't ask for you to stay – if this is what you want, to leave without the desire to continue your adventures from the last night, then so be it. satoru wants you to be happy. you tell him it was good and that you'd like to, perhaps, do it again and he can taste you on his tongue when he says that he feels the same. satoru will take every crumb you'll give him with a smile on his face. he won't complain and he won't ask for more, not yet at least. for now, he'll be completely and utterly at your mercy, a lapdog for you to play with whenever you so desire to do. a selfless kind of love.
#this might not be everybody's satoru i realize#but idk i think he's a lonely boy who doesn't know how to deal with his feelings#he really does like you and he wants your attention#he wants your love#he just . doesn't know how to ask for it#idk ok this is also wordvomit#but yeah sad little meow meow satoru who just wants to do everything and anything for you#he's kind of a knight in this#selfless type of love yk#even got the dog motif in lmao#okok i'm sleepy so idk if any of this even makes sense just bear with me yeah#(the bear is very calm and friendly please relax)#mickey is daydreaming#angel boy#gojo x reader
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Odile looping aus my beloved
#SHE LITERALLY SAYS SHE WANTED TO ASK TO KEEP TRAVELING#AND COULDN'T WORK UP THE NERVE#aughh I'm sick i love her#lil lonely middle aged woman#my art#in stars and time#isat#in stars and time fanart#isat odile#isat fanart#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#odile loops au#odile timeloop au#in tales of time au#in tales of time
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Love the 2000s Here Is The Specialest Boy procedural genre
#shoutout to Bones for being a trailblazer as the lone Here is The Special Girl procedural#psych#white collar#the mentalist#hannibal#monk#house md#suits#castle#grimm#Chuck#prodigal son#btw I'm saying this genuinely i love most of these shows#numb3rs#lie to me#there are probably so many more but i can't think of any
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911 lone star/tarlos s5 -> every babe & baby in episodes 1-5
#911 lone star#911lsedit#tarlos#tk strand#carlos reyes#tw: food#my gifs#THAT'S HIS BABY#anytime tk calls carlos by his name instead of babe or baby he probably freaks out a little#like 'oh shit. whats wrong.'#carlos just IS baby/babe to tk#whereas carlos brings out the babe/baby in emotional moments and I also love that#(i'm still stuck on that turnip truck y'all. it says 'island style'... wtf are island style turnips??)
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#girlblogging#lana del rey#girlhood#girl interrupted#lana del ray aesthetic#buffalo 66#girl rotting#girly stuff#this is a girlblog#this is what makes us girls#coquette#im just a girl#female hysteria#hell is a teenage girl#girlblog#i'm sad#im cryin#just girly things#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#lizzy grant#coquette aesthetic#coquette girl#girl blogger#girl things#lonely girl#lana del ray coded#lana how i hate those guys#lanadelrey#courtney love#dollcore
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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HOLY SHIT I FOUND YOU!! I SAW YOUR FNAF ART LIKE A YEAR AGO ON PINTREST AND I WAS LIKE DAMN THATS PRETTY FUCKING AWSOME BUT FOR THE LIFE OF ME I COULDN'T FIND THE ARTIST BUT I JUST DID, ITS YOU!!
I have no idea which art of mine you found from pinterest but based on what you're implying I lowkey think it's this screenshot redraw I made for the FNAF movie lmao (which I hope I'm right)
Unfortunately you won't get much FNAF art from me nowadays anon, ever since Ruin disappointed me immensely I've just lost most of the hope I've been clinging onto for the franchise, now I'm just here... reminiscing, watching from the sidelines, and making a once-in-a-blue-moon art for it if I'm feeling extra
#thanks for the ask!#Ziku's insane rambles#fnaf#fnaf art#freddy fazbear#bonnie the bunny#chica the chicken#Just to be clear#I don't HATE FNAF#I'm just tired of seeing the one character I love get dragged to the mud multiple times#I'm being nihilistic but when I say there's no place for Chica fans in the fnaf fandom#there really isn't one I'm afraid#Scott had the opportunity to do SOMETHING WORTHWHILE with Glamrock Chica#instead we got fucking Roxanne Wolf because oooo the fandom likes the furry bait ig#not that I hate Roxanne Wolf either but how tf are you prioritizing this one-time character over the ONE WHO HAS CONTINUOUSLY EXISTED#AND WILL CONTINUE TO EXIST; WITHOUT PURPOSE MIND YOU; BECAUSE YOU KEEP FUMBLING#I guess what I'm saying is.... fnaf can be so alienating and lonely if the character you like isn't the furry thirst traps#because Scott hates Chica and doing anything remotely important with her; she's just a joke character in his eyes#sigh... now I'm sad because I'm remembering what made me drift away from this franchise
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#this is a cry for help please i have loved this clown for over a decade#When Bruce says “I can fix him” I completely understand & not bc I want to fix him#but bc despite all the atrocities he has committed you can't help but feel compassion for him#Joker constantly struggles to not let himself be seen vulnerable but when he does oh God it breaks my heart#I wouldn't know what to do if I were aware that I'm being doomed by the narrative & i had no escape even in death#to have a fate as tragic as being forced to become a myth#a monster who abandons all traces of humanity to make sure that someone else never abandons his#A lonely man who lives in a world of the dead and must do as much harm as possible to the only living person before his eyes#After all horror and obsession leads backs to love. oh god imagine loving as much as he does#Love as something twisted as a source of tragedy and death as an addiction a wound that never stops bleeding and hurts more every day#All you want is to be free#But someone else is holding on to you and will never let u go bcz he is afraid of being alone#and without you the weight of the world he carries on his shoulders would kill him he needs u as much as u need him#both are going to drown together#anyways hahaha i luv this stupid clown#joker#the joker#batjokes#bcz i got carried away writing the tags :p
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juzi for the juzi nation maybe? just read hostile takeover by snugglesquiggle and it gave me fatal juzi disease
Thanks now I'm infected!!! (also bonus doodle under the cut)
(requests are still open!)
This is seriously the first time I've drawn juzi??? I need to fix that.
#ok genuinely though thanks for the fic name drop I am already half way through it#this scene was my “OH” moment /pos#like this is probably the first fic that was Uzi centric I've read that actually gets those small nuances to her character that I love#and also made me completely rethink J as a character#I'm just not over this scene. “You're Lonely” sdfkjsdkfjsfd#Thnks again!!#Murder drones#serial designation j#uzi doorman#juzi#do they have a shipname? idk#Murder drones tessa#tessa james elliot#only in text but she is kinda there? whatever
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Encounter V — Reverse Boost
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#kamen rider#kamen rider geats#kamen rider tycoon#kamen rider buffa#michinaga azuma#keiwa sakurai#keimichi#fanart#comics#artists on tumblr#i may have watched geats only this year but happy anniversary to the episode that ruined my braincells#i still remember clear as day before watching eps 5/6 i said my friend 'maybe i'll ship tycoon and buffa#and then these episodes happened and i became a lost cause#bc they are so opposites they make a whole 360 with the whole 'world peace / destroy the system' ideals#AND THE SLOW-but-kinda-rushed-bc-final-was-rushed-lets-admit-it BURN WAS A BANQUET FOR MY NEEDS#i've checked tags after i was done and i've seen people dropping the ship while the series aired and look—#I totally get it but i'm a clingy stubborn one#and i actually love some of their other ships too but again i'm clingy one sdfghjk#anyway tags for the chosen ones who got here — im actually looking for mutuals to follow on my side acc so o/#it has been a lil bit lonely to have only my best friend to talk about kr in general but im a total newbie to the entire franchise orz#also TWT IS BACK IN BRAZIL BUT IDK WHERE'S THE KR PEOPLE THERE SO
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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gotta be one of the funniest genres of barbatos scenes
#thinking about this because i'm just grinding a bunch of lonely devils on og for all the cards of my faves i missed#lemme know if i missed any similar scenes i skipped reading a lot of events and dont have every barbatos memory card quite yet <3#obey me barbatos#obey me shall we date#obey me#barbatos x mc#hes so funny & for what.............. him making the same dejected little face in both of these scenes is so silly 2 me#he really said f everyone except mc and diavolo <3 love that for him <3
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911 lone star -> carlos + gripping TK's neck
#911 lone star#tarlos#911lsedit#tarlosedit#tk strand#carlos reyes#i am unwell today#I'm in my soft dom carlos feels rn ngl#the possessiveness in this gesture that he does. constantly#he has claimed tk and that spot as his#but also the way some of these are passionate and others are just soft and reassuring and full of love#ok imma stop now#my faves
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AU in which the trio opens a fine dining restaurant. It's like The Bear but with vampires.
#ts4#sims 4 gameplay#ts4 gameplay#sims 4#the zhaoverse#lilith vatore#caleb vatore#helena zhao#i'm trying my hardest not to spoil shots from the actual scene#so have this behind the scenes silliness instead#i had helena and caleb cook all the food rather than attempt actual restaurant gameplay lol#they had a great time!#poor hugo villareal happened to be the lone employee still wandering around after i changed the lot to generic#anyway i'm currently making some fun poses for a few of your lovely vampires!#realistically i'll probably start posting again the second week of october because i want to try to finish all three parts completely!#this is the most time and effort i've put in since the party scene last fall!
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OMG I’m so excited for this!!! Can I request Vil with the prompt rainy nights?? Can it be fluffy and romantic? Anyway I hope you have a wonderful day!! :)
Rainy Nights; Vil Schoenheit
Content; Fluff, gender-neutral reader, established romantic relationship
Content Warning; Reader cries because of a movie, death (movie)
Word Count; 700+
Author's Note; I had a vision; watching old movies with Vil as the rain came down. I had a lot of fun writing this, and this is also my first solo Vil piece, so I hope I did him justice here.
As a reminder, do not put my work — or others for that matter — into AI as it steals. Link to Masterlist
You were rummaging around the TV console, going through the numerous DVDs and VHS tapes that were just sitting around and collecting dust. Tonight was your night for movie night, as yesterday was Vil’s, so you were weighing your options. Sure, there were streaming services, but there’s just something that hits differently with a physical copy, flaws and all. Plus it’s not like you could go out since it was raining like no tomorrow outside. So, movie night.
“Having any luck,” Vil gently called from the washroom, still doing his nightly routine.
Your eyes still scoured the various cases, trying to find the perfect one. “Not yet. Just give me a minute, m’kay?”
Vil gave you a hum as an answer, leaving you be.
Horror movie? No, he wouldn’t like that. Mystery? Too predictable… And then you found what looked like the most faded cases, colour worn away from age and a hand going back time and time again. That one.
Pulling it out, you dusted off the case, inspecting the title. Of the smudged-out words, you could make out The, some kind of smudged-out word, Blossom. It looked like a black-and-white movie, and on the front were the protagonists with their backs together, flower petals surrounding them, and a dagger above them. This, this is perfect.
Vil came out of the washroom, wearing his matching royal purple pyjamas and house robe, and glowing from the various skin products that he used. He looked curiously over your shoulder. “Hmm, The Bitter Blossom,” he mused, turning his gaze to you. “Is that your pick, Schatz?” His tone was light, a sign that he approved, and was mildly surprised at your pick.
“Mhm,” you hummed, placing the VHS tape into the VCR player. Whoever had played it last had saved you the trouble of rewinding it. “Have you watched it before?”
“Surprisingly, no. Copies of it are extremely hard to come by.” He got the sofa ready, adjusting the pillows, grabbing one of the many quilts, and a box of tissues, just in case. He noticed the look you were giving him, “I haven’t watched it, but I have heard about how it ends.”
You raised a brow, but shrugged. You pressed play and scrambled over to your spot next to Vil, getting comfy and pulling that handy quilt over the both of you — the rain had made it a little bit chilly.
The Bitter Blossom started playing. Not only was it in black-and-white, but it was also a silent film. The protagonists were two lovers who met by chance, their relationship going from cold strangers to a budding romance.Â
But why had Vil grabbed the tissues? The movie was almost over, it couldn’t possibly—
But then the antagonist, a jealous ex of one of the main protagonists, stabbed the love interest in the back with a dagger. The movie ended with the protagonist hugging their love interest, flower blossoms falling down around them.
“Do not let the bitter blossom of hatred and vengeance bloom in your heart or mind, my love. Do not let it ruin the happiness which we fleetingly had.” The words flashed on the screen before the movie ended with the screen fading into black.
That, that was why Vil had grabbed the tissues. Wait, were you crying? That would explain why Vil was gently dabbing away the stray tears as they rolled down your face.
“A lovely film, love,” he whispered, “I should have warned you about the ending—”
You stopped him by grabbing softly at his hand, bringing it up to cup your face. “No, it’s alright. It was a beautiful movie,” you hiccuped, leaning into his touch.Â
Vil caressed calming strokes on your cheek, the slow movements helping you focus on him. He placed a kiss on your forehead, a gentle hum escaping as the kiss lingered. “Oh potato,” your old nickname from when the two of you were still just only acquaintances, “what am I going to do with you?”
You grabbed a tissue and loudly blew your nose, “Cuddles?”
Vil sighed softly, but put his arm around you, resting his head against yours and placing a kiss to your temple. “Alright,” he hummed and continued humming a gentle tune until you were falling asleep. While he would prefer sleeping in bed, he supposed he could stand to cuddle with you on the sofa as the rain eased up outside.
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Schatz; German for treasure, a common term of endearment
Tags; @azulashengrottospiano [I've seen the Vil brain rot and gushing], @eynnwwyjth, @xxoomiii
#dove does events#follower event#twst#twst x reader#twst x gn reader#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland x reader#twisted wonderland x gn reader#vil schoenheit#vil schoenheit x reader#vil schoenheit x gn reader#also i decided to go with a VHS tape since i wanted them to watch an old OLD movie; plus i miss my VCR player#soft vil content to heal the soul#he also cried a bit but was very subtle in wiping away the lone tear#hopefully i wrote vil with some justice as I'm still trying to characterize him right#potato; said with love#sofia!#i also think this is the longest one as of yet ; just checked and yup! it is#that might change though as i write the others#thought about having reader call vil their 'schnucki' [sweetie-pie] but decided against it#but it does live rent free in my head#i wonder how many people read through all of my tags; cuz i do hide some gems in there as little easter eggs of sorts
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